Devil's dilemma

The boy who stole my heart in Dubai!   I met this guy through bumble, Who made my heart just tumble! You are crazy, you are charming, you are ambitious, Cherry on the cake is that You are delicious.   You have a past which you cannot forget, So, I don’t want your future to be a debt! your past makes you more vulnerable, All I want is to be a part of your fable.   Most of the time I don’t know where you are busy, Still every time we meet, you make me feel cozy! I don’t care if you are rich, or your wallet is loaded, Neither do I care if your clothes are branded.   I have never met a boy so sappy, So, all I pray is that you should always be happy! Together we have laughed and cried, So, X with you all my unnecessary past just died.   It’s a lone and tiresome winter dear, All am missing is your presence near! The feeling that I get when I’m wrapped in your arms, Just tells that you are so strong and yet so calm. ...

I asked him if he loved someone else!? He said yes! I asked him if he missed her? he said yes! I asked him if he talked to her every day? He said yes! I asked myself what was i doing? I got no answer I asked myself why i love the wrong person? I got no answer I asked myself when will i stop? I got not answer I asked him not to talk anymore, He didnt stop, I asked to stop caring for me, He didnt stop, I asked him to turn his back, He didnt oblige! How do feel when you know he is in her arms How do you feel when you know he is thinking about her How do you feel when you know he is not yours you feel your whole world fall apart, you feel the heart burning down, you feel everything was a lie, You still have the strength to ignore it and love him with all your heart. I have never had the courage to abandon a relationship when i have known its not working out anymore. I feel like i have to just keep on trying till i reach the point where i get used, abused, and thrown away...

I dont know what it was That made me love you I definitely know what it was That made me hate you! I remember all your words I remember all your actions and somehow both never matched! Sometime you were there And all of a sudden you were never there! You said it was love, so I stayed! Maybe it was too much, Or maybe it was never enough But why did this love had me in bruises? One day I was everything Other second I was just nothing One day I was in love and other second I was just left empty!

One day we were in love One day we held hands One day we were called love birds One day our hearts fluttered One day he asked me to choose One day I let him go One day i said good bye One day i didn't turn back! Days came, days went by People came, people taught me lessons He still tried to make his presence be felt My heart always thought of him My heart always wanted to read his messages Birthdays came, years passed by I had moved on, He had to move ahead One day i dreamt of him One day i wanted to hear his voice One day i needed to know if he is really fine One day he insisted me to talk One day i forgot i was all alone One day i asked him to close his eyes and look at me for a while This day we both are equally scared With empty hearts we move ahead With no hopes we look at each other Reliving the old memories is all we can do We try our best not to be hurt again The biggest question still remains: Could we stitch each other's souls again? ...

At 30 I am Thirsty! Thirsty for all the thrill, Thirsty to pay the bills Thirsty for responsibility, Thirsty to take no pity Thirsty for the excitement, Thirsty to be careless Thirsty to strive, Thirsty to triumph Thirsty to fall in love, Thirsty to have an affair Thirsty to be caring, Thirsty to be jealous Thirsty to have 6 shots, Thirsty to have crazy tattoos Thirsty to travel the world, Thirsty to wink at strangers Thirsty to drive alone, Thirsty to have group hugs Thirsty to lead the team, thirsty to manage my own Thirsty to make mistakes, Thirsty to learn again Thirsty to dream, Thirsty to laugh, Thirsty to cry Thirsty to live my life a little bit more again! Lets kick start my thirties and live this crazy LIFE :)

I Smile, because I lost someone i Loved I Smile, because he broke my heart I Smile, because he did exactly what i told him not to I Smile, because he abandoned me when i needed him I Smile, because after all these years it was him I Smile, because he blamed everything on me I Smile, because he made me feel useless I Smile, because he stabbed my heart I laugh, as I realised all this finally I laugh, as I finally knew what i am worth of I laugh, as I made my own decisions I laugh, as I learn to heel myself I laugh, as I am not scared to go home anymore I laugh, as my parents found their long lost daughter I laugh, as I dont need anyone to make me "ME" I laugh, as I am free Go live your life sweethearts. We only get one. We dont kow how many years we have. We havent even witnessed 1% of what GOD created for us. Why waste life in doing something you never wanted to do. Realize your bigger purpose in this small planet of a massive universe :)