What s Love!

I asked him if he loved someone else!? He said yes!
I asked him if he missed her? he said yes!
I asked him if he talked to her every day? He said yes!

I asked myself what was i doing? I got no answer
I asked myself why i love the wrong person? I got no answer
I asked myself when will i stop? I got not answer

I asked him not to talk anymore, He didnt stop,
I asked to stop caring for me, He didnt stop,
I asked him to turn his back, He didnt oblige!

How do feel when you know he is in her arms
How do you feel when you know he is thinking about her
How do you feel when you know he is not yours
you feel your whole world fall apart, you feel the heart burning down, you feel everything was a lie,
You still have the strength to ignore it and love him with all your heart.

I have never had the courage to abandon a relationship when i have known its not working out anymore. I feel like i have to just keep on trying till i reach the point where i get used, abused, and thrown away. I still keep trying even after that, and then finally i realize i was stupid and then i just flip my switch towards him and shut him down all at once. but by that time the person is so used to taking me for granted that he doesnt realise why did i shut him up. After all he had been treating me in the same manner for years right, why did i back off now so suddenly. Well, he never realised that for all those years he was mistreating me, i was silently waiting and giving him 1000 chances to improve. I just wished he had picked up his 1 chance atleast and made me feel i was loved.

Here I am falling in love with a person in whose life i shouldnt be in. I should be far far away. I am just not right for him. Still each day I wait for him to give me a call!